Trying to find myself.. still

After the 2year long relationship I had I was trying to find myself in this big world. I know that I don't care what people think about me. I think way to much about the small things. I'm a bit dramatic, what girl isn't? Makeup is something i don't always need to wear, My hair can be cute in a messy bun, My clothes can be lazy and i will still look cute. It don't matter how much sleep i get, I'm still waking up 15 minuets before I go to work. McDonald's Mayonnaise is better than regular mayonnaise. I will always think I can stand to lose a few more pounds. I'll always be the girl to laugh at everything i possibly can. I'll never stop watching cartoons, I'm still into Facebook and Twitter. Music is my life and that wont ever change. As far as being a bitch, never will i be one intentionally. I'm a total sweetheart. As much as i love someone, i'll never be able to make them love me back. People are always going to judge me on everything they possibly can. I'm the type of  girl who will dance in the pouring rain, laugh at the small jokes, smile just because it's a beautiful day out. I have come to realize that blaming myself for things that is clearly not my fault will only let the other person have an excuse. Relationships aren't supposed to be with one person doing all the work. Both people have to want it in order for it to work. There's absolutely no need to lie or keep something from your significant other. that will only cause problems. Life will go on, Its not the end of the world. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. No ones opinion counts. God is the only one who can judge you on the things you do that is right and or wrong. I am still trying to find myself as a person, I do not know what i want in life, the only thing that i know that i want as of right now is a relationship. A loving, happy, caring, affectionate relationship where we can act like little kids, be best friends, do all the fun and cute stuff  and be so in love. I want to find someone who wont stop falling in love with me, i want someone to pay attention to all the small things that i do. Someone to keep me on my toes. Just be there for me in everything that i might go through. I know how to treat a person and that is what i plan to do. As for right now I'm  still searching for the things i like and don't like. The things i want and don't want. Only time will tell <3